a pocket FULL of sunshine

I mean FULL of ... well, SUNSHINE. At least in this girl's book. :)

And even though money may not grow on trees; happiness does come in pill form.

I know what you are thinking.

 If it's so great why don't you take it everyday?

I would if I could.

Happiness is expensive.

And when you don't have health insurance the cost can be the difference between

real food for the month or Top Ramen...

Today was a soup kinda day anyway.

in the end

How do you say the words that no one wants to hear?
How do you be honest when the truth is so hurtful?
How do you express the anguish you can't explain?

Do you keep it inside, bury it deep and shoulder the burden alone?
Do you say what needs to be said even if you know no one will listen?
Do you run away and hope it doesn't follow you?

Why can't life be fair?
Why can't it be easier?
Why can't it be fixed?

I want to be done.
I want things to change.
I want it all to go away.


...but there is always hope for the future.

So, I'll pop another pill.
Put on my happy face.
And smile through the pain.

because in the end ...
what other choice do I have?

those kids

You know those kids you don't want your children to be friends with? 

The ones who make bad choices, use foul language, are rude, defiant, and just overall not good examples??

My kids LIVE with those kids.

[long heavy sigh]

I tried to fix it.

.. but it appears to be something I can not medicate for, discipline out, correct, or change.

now what?

send kids to their room for all acts of inappropraite behavior, which makes them think I hate them and am punishing them for being who they are

or

continue to let my kids be surrounded with this negative influence that makes my skin crawl and my neck ache??

I tried fixing it. It didn't work.

So I tried to ignore it.

It's no longer bareable. My little children are now mimicing thier older brothers. 

It's what little kids do.

And I can't ignore that. 

What's holding you back?

I really like this.

So much so I pinned it twice on Pinterest.

I got the message that said "Sarah repinned you" and started laughing at my silly self.

But it's a great message.

What WOULD I do if I knew I could not fail?

Awesome Dance! :)

I think Brad and Kayla should do this dance for their couples routine at the Ironman in Spokane it would be pretty epic. Kayla will totally rock this, and just imagine Brad.... long haired wig... flexing trunks. lol. I'm sure we could make a mash-up, but this has to be part of it!

The Mom Challenge

The Mom Challenge

 "There is no way to be a perfect mother, but a million ways to be a good one.... "

I originally "re-pinned" this idea from my Aunt Jani's pin on Pinterest. [Here are my boards, ya know.. in case you feel like following me :)]

Often I find myself thinking I am not good enough at this mommy thing. I want to do more activities like she does, or take my kids more places like they do, or have more time to do this or that... pretty much I am hard on myself because I'm afraid I won't be the best mom ever. And I really, really want to be. Seriously I want my kids to brag to their friends about how amazing their childhood was. So this is an attempt to uncover new and exciting way to be a great mom.

Ukuleles

I love songs with ukuleles in them, seriously nothing can put a big cheesy grin on my face faster than an upbeat ukulele song. The only thing I love more than that is a song about ukuleles... enjoy! :) lol.